If All the Doors Are Closed: Undocumented Youth & Higher Education

Near the end of my freshman year at college, the woman who would become my lifelong best friend and – in so many ways – mentor stood in my dorm room, perusing my framed photo collection amid my Introduction to the Humanities course readers. On the shelf was a framed photo of my high school class, taken on the day when all the seniors wear their university t-shirts and pose on the bleachers outside our college preparatory academy for a final group photo.

       “What about the kids who didn’t go to college?”, my friend inquired.


       “Every kid in your class went to college?”, she confirmed, incredulously.

Now, there were only 72 of us in that graduating class. But, yes, every single one of us went to college. As did every kid in the class ahead of us and the one below. And while I know not everyone finished a four-year collegiate program, I’m sure it was considered scandalous if there was a student from my high school who didn’t – at least – initially enroll. College was a guarantee. And an expectation. I had no idea of my own privileged position until that friend of mine called me out on my ignorance. Thank goodness for her. Swapping my naivete for a wider world view is an important challenge and I hope the stories and perspectives we share through Miss Matters only continue that challenge for me…and for you, Sugars.

Nowadays, I make a living teaching standardized test prep, editing college application essays and advising students and their parents on college selection. I work with privileged students, with students applying for scholarships and work-study programs and with students with learning disabilities, for whom the academic future is uncertain. With the increasingly – nearly prohibitively – choosy admittance percentages of colleges, there is an encouraging increase in interest in nontraditional educational paths. But many of us unwittingly assume we’re operating under a mostly merit-based educational system. As long as you’re pursuing a reasonably achievable academic goal, you’ll find your niche in the appropriate environment.

So what, then, does one do, when – despite the necessary academic achievement and ability and ambition – doors are closed to further advancement? What does one do when merit doesn’t matter?

As a dedicated and accomplished student, activist and community organizer Veronica Gomez deserved the education she pursued; but as an undocumented youth, government policy restricted her academic access.

My own college application process involved one single fear: that I wouldn’t get into my top choice. There was no other major concern. I knew I would go somewhere. My lack of fear was merely an absence of uncertainty.

Of the approximately 65,000 undocumented students who graduate from high school each year, only 5-6% will overcome the associated difficulties (lack of financial aid, exclusion from the workforce) and attend college. For Veronica and the thousands of others who not only desire, but are willing to fight for equal access to higher education, their rallying banner “undocumented and unafraid” doesn’t denote a lack of fear, but a determination to press on despite tremendous risk.

In this week’s mentor blog we are honored to share Veronica’s story, in her own words. She is joined by Jenniffer Castillo and Saray Deiseil, the two intrepid filmmakers who joined and documented Veronica’s and six other activists’ cross-country march to raise awareness for immigrant rights.

The resulting film, American Dreamers, “tells the story behind the Campaign for an American DREAM (CAD)*, a group of six undocumented youth and an ally who risk their freedom when they publicly come out as undocumented and walk 3,000 miles to the nation’s capital to organize for immigrant rights. These are college students, young professionals, activists, and community leaders. The documentary chronicles their journey as they come out of the shadows, share their stories, empower communities, and put everything on the line to fight in what they believe is their civil rights movement. They are undocumented and unafraid.”

How did each of you get involved in Campaign for an American Dream, originally?

Jenniffer Castillo: I first heard about CAD through a Google Alert! I had been writing a story about immigration at the time and had been doing a lot of research for it. When I read about them, I emailed Saray right away. Figured if they didn’t have cameras with them and they were open to being filmed, that this would be a tremendous story to cover. Within a week, we were on the phone with them. And within a month we met them on the road in Provo, Utah.

Saray Deiseil: As Jenn mentioned, she came to me with the article when CAD began their walk in San Francisco.  I immediately was on board because these are the stories we want to tell, stories that have a social cause and can shift the way people think and view certain issues.  This was a story that not only is important for our country to have a dialogue about, but it really hit close to home for us on many levels.  We were very fortunate to have had the opportunity to join them on their journey.  

Veronica Gomez: I found out about the walk via Facebook! Saw a post about a group of activists putting together the walk who were accepting applicants for walkers. I decided to submit, but they actually turned me down… Twice! I didn’t let that stop me. I volunteered with them before the walk, and when the walk first started I drove out during the weekends to walk with them. By the time they reached Vegas, they asked me to join full-time and I never left.

Vero, you have a personal story which relates specifically to educational rights in this country. Will you tell us a little about what it was like growing up undocumented?

VG: Growing up I didn’t really know what it meant to be undocumented. It wasn’t until I was 16 and tried to apply to a California driver’s license that reality sunk in. At the time, California did not issue licenses to undocumented immigrants. Once I graduated from high school, another reality sunk in… I couldn’t go to a four-year college because I didn’t qualify for in-state tuition… Or so I thought! AB 540 had passed in California in 2001… This was 2005… But the advisors at my high school were not not aware of the opportunities available to undocumented students and neither was I… I was told I couldn’t attend a four-year university. I went to community college instead and obtained two associates degrees. By then I realized I qualified for AB 540, I transferred into a four-year institution where I received a bachelor’s degree. Still, at my graduation I held back tears because I knew that without a work permit, I wouldn’t be able to use the degree I had worked so hard to obtain.

The biggest issue with being undocumented for me was not knowing others who were in my same situation. Back then, letting others know about your status and trusting them with that information was a big ‘no no’. It was a secret you could not share. Since 2010, with the rise of the undocumented youth movement, more and more people are now coming out of the shadows and sharing their stories publicly.

For those of us who don’t understand the process, can you shed some light on just how difficult obtaining legal status is in this country?

VG: For as long as I can remember, everyone always said ‘to get in the back of the line’ to obtain citizenship, but if there was a line many undocumented folks like myself would have stood in line.

My parents applied for residency through my dad’s sister when they first arrived, but 23 years later they were still waiting for an appointment from immigration to fix our status. Because of our broken immigration system, the processing time for a sibling to petition another can be decades long. If you ask me, 23 years is not a line, it’s a lifetime. My parents were finally able to get residency when my younger sister turned 21. The processing time when you’re petitioning a parent is much quicker. Within six months they had residency. Unfortunately, if my sister tried to petition for me, we would also be looking at a very long processing time.

Hearing stories like yours – and like that of your fellow CAD activist Jonatan Martinez who hoped to serve in the American armed forces – it seems particularly ironic that you sought a degree and a potential career in the public service sector in a country that, seemingly, via public policy, doesn’t appreciate your fight for your own education or your desired service. How difficult was it to maintain your own determination?

VG: It was difficult to maintain my determination and at times it still is…but my parents sacrificed so much to provide a better future for us. They’ve given me the strength to move forward. My mother always told me that when one door closes another opens, and if all the doors are closed, I better find a window or another way in.

Just to give you some background on my desire to pursue law enforcement…before I went to school for Criminal Justice because I wanted to be ready to be able to protect my family in case immigration ever came for them. Now that I have a work permit, granted to me through the Deferred Action for Childhood Arrivals (DACA) program, I am able to work legally but I still can’t be a police officer in the state of California because I am not a US citizen. DACA doesn’t grant us a pathway to citizenship and police work requires citizenship. My sister who is a US citizen is actually applying to be a police officer in San Francisco as we speak.

Since the walk, I’ve learned that I don’t have to be a police officer to protect my family. I have to be up to date with laws and legislations, I have to know our rights, and I have to be connected to a group who can advocate for us if anything happens. Being connected to activists and people on the ground who can advocate for you and your family goes a long way when you or a family member are in deportation proceedings… That’s why I urge people to get involved and reach out to the groups in their communities. It’s not that I’ve entirely given up on the idea of being a police officer, it’s simply that that is not an option for me at this time. Even with DACA, I am still undocumented.  

There’s been progress for the cause made via both your specific activism/film and via legislation at state and federal levels. For each of you  – personally – what is the most rewarding change you’ve witnessed?

JC: The most rewarding legislative change to have witnessed was the DACA announcement. CAD was part of a national civil disobedience orchestrated by the National Immigrant Youth Alliance and Immigrant Youth Coalition in which undocumented youth staged sit-ins in President Obama’s campaign office across the country, demanding President Obama to pass an executive order that would stop the deportation of DREAMers. Vero and Javier from CAD were the first to go in. The office they took over was the main campaign office in Denver. Their sit-in also turned into a hunger strike, and Saray and I were with them in the office for those six days. It was truly moving to see them risk arrest and deportation as a way to speak up for their community. At the time, we didn’t know what would come of it and if any of it would be worth it. But the day they walked out, others actions erupted in other states across the country and two days later President Obama announced DACA, giving them exactly what they asked for, a way to stop the deportations of undocumented youth.

It was really empowering to see young people spearheading the change. There were many other actions, previous to the takeover of the President’s offices, and I truly believe it was the collective efforts of the undocumented youth movement that led to the change. President Obama and his administration didn’t just make that announcement because it was the “right” thing. They did it because they were pushed, right when it hurt them the most, when they were canvassing for re-election votes.  

SD: I echo every word Jenn just mentioned.  The action in the Obama Campaign office in Denver, CO during the 2012 election they participated in was such a pivotal moment not only for the film and for the undocumented movement but for me personally.  To witness first-hand the power and influence that a small group of people can have inspired me to be more active in what I believe in and feel is just and fair.  Their courage and vulnerability carried the weight of what our country stands for and what the people of America have fought for. They taught me that we can’t just sit idle waiting for something to happen, we have to make it happen and they did.  Although it was rewarding to see them accomplish this, I know it’s not enough and I know that we still have a long way to go before we can make real change and I know they will continue the long fight just as they kept walking across the country after DACA was passed.

VG: Across the country different groups are organizing and continuing to fight for State Dream Acts, which allow undocumented students to pursue higher education degrees and qualify for in-state tuition. Some states like California are going a step further and allowing students to apply for state-funded grants and scholarships. There are also more and more privately-funded sources of aid for students since undocumented students cannot apply for federally-funded financial aid. My greatest sense of achievement as an activist and community organizer is becoming one and using the skills I have learned to help others.

Vero, obviously, you now fight for the rights of other undocumented individuals. What is the specific dream (for yourself and for the others’ on whose behalf you work) that is worthy of your undeniable conviction?

VG: My goal is to help others find their voice and to fight for their rights no matter the issue at hand.

What’s the next big hurdle for the campaign and what is the greatest threat to continued progress?

VG: The biggest hurdle is sometimes not being aware of the resources that are available to you. Other than that, it’s funding. We don’t qualify for federally funded financial aid and even in-state tuition is expensive. Many times it takes us 6+ years to obtain a degrees that others can afford in 4.

JC: So now that there is a way for young people to remain in this country with two-year work permits and deferral from deportations, we have to create a pathway to citizenship. Right now DACA does not offer a pathway to citizenship so young people who qualify for DACA will continue to have to reapply and pay hefty fees every two years.

We also need to expand relief to the families– parents and young people who may be over 31 years of age (a requirement of DACA) because remember one of the biggest problems of the broken immigration system is the separation of families. There was a push for parents of U.S. citizen children and young people over the age of 31 through another announcement President Obama did called DAPA & Extended DACA. However, a federal district court in Texas issued an order that temporarily blocks these programs from being implemented so the programs are being held up in court as we speak. The programs are expected to benefit 4.4 million people. We have to push for that program to be implanted, and then we have to fight for their pathway to citizenship as well.

But the fight is long from over… There’s an estimate of 11 million undocumented people in the U.S. About 4.4 million would benefit for DAPA and Extended DACA and just under 1 million have already benefited from DACA… so that’s what? 5.6 million who will not be eligible for any relief? What happens to them? And what happens to those who have already been deported? The other dreamers? The families who have already been separated? There’s always more work to be done… Unfortunately, this system has been broken for too long and it has affected too many people.  

Surely we will all hear much about immigrant rights and immigration policy on the road to the 2016 elections…for readers who are interested in how their votes will affect immigrants’ rights: do you have particular insights or opinions about what to look for within candidates’ platforms?

JC:  Look at their track record. Politicians like to change their mind and do whatever it takes to win a vote during election time. Let their own votes speak for themselves. But it’s not enough to look through platforms and hear speeches. As a community, we have to continue to hold our legislators accountable. If they promise something, make sure they follow through.  That’s what the undocumented youth movement has been doing with President Obama’s administration… holding him accountable for all the promises he made during both campaigns… It’s been an uphill battle for them and many people have sacrificed a lot, but they are slowly making strides. By pushing President Obama, they have been achieving what others have been trying to do in Congress for decades.

What’s next for the film, specifically?

SD: The world premiere of American DREAMers at the LA Film Festival this year was just the beginning. The film is getting ready to participate in the San Francisco Latino Film Festival September 18, which we are very excited about as San Francisco is where the journey began for CAD.  We will then have a small theatrical run along with visiting universities and high schools across the country starting this fall and into next year. The film will then be released online and through television outlets by next spring, at the latest. We will be inviting communities across the country to host screenings, so stay tuned by visiting our website. We have been so fortunate to have an incredible amount of support thus far and hope to continue sharing the film and engaging in this important discussion on immigration.  We invite undocumented activists and allies to connect with us and use the film as a tool.  This film is very much theirs as it is ours.  

How can people see the doc and how can individuals/communities of undocumented activists and allies join the campaign?

VG: Get involved in your local immigrant rights group and know your rights so you can protect yourself and others.

American Dreamers screens at the San Francisco Latino Film Festival on Saturday, September 19th at 3pm at the Mission Cultural Center – 2868 Mission St, San Francisco, CA 94110

For further reading on immigration policies as they directly relate to higher educational opportunities for undocumented youth in the U.S., we highly recommend the case study “Young Lives on Hold: The College Dreams of Undocumented Students” by Roberto G. Gonzales, for College Board Advocacy.

If you’d like to support and join the Campaign for an American Dream, please take a look at the following sites and sign up for the American Dreamers’ newsletter on the documentary website.







10494599_833572716727604_4175325848259784278_n*CAD’s mission: “to walk across the nation from San Francisco to D.C. creating dialogue around the passage of the DREAM Act and immigration reform with the values of equality, unity, and diversity. We believe all people are equal, all those who are oppressed should be united, and our daily lives and the Campaign itself highlight diversity.

The New Academic Year: Live for the Now AND Live for the Future*

What class or extracurricular activity should I not miss out on?  -Anna, 10th Grade

There are a few ways to answer this, but I’ll tell you that my first answer is to not miss the class or activity you absolutely don’t want to miss. I know everyone spends a lot of time crafting schedules and signing up for extracurriculars which look the best on your transcript…and that’s not unimportant. But make room for the class you’re dying to take. Sign up for the after-school club that excites you. Dedicating all your time to the requirements and the subjects or activities you feel are necessary for your high school record without an added indulgence in passion or discovery just makes school stale. College admissions officers are looking for balance. They want the general education basics AND they want to know you’re a real-life individual who will not only succeed at their university, but will bring your own individuality to their community. You’ll never see a college admissions officer toss a competitive application out because you were in the fly fishing club. It shows you have passion as well as academic ability and maybe it helps you mitigate the stress you feel from a difficult class about which you’re less passionate. There’s a lot about school that is not fun. Take the chances to enjoy learning anytime you can.

What are some high school freshman must haves in terms of supplies? – Connor, 9th Grade

Required supplies will vary school to school. Some schools are really specific about needed items, down to the color folder you use for each subject, so check your school’s supply list. Protractors, giant calculators, art pencils with specific softness…these will all be requested subject by subject. For other supplies, make sure you have a good stockpile of backup supplies at home. You don’t want a lack of batteries or pencils at home to be any kind of excuse to not complete homework.

What I would recommend for every student is a filing system at home. There is NO WAY to carry every note, quiz, handout, test, paper in your binder in your backpack all year. So set up a system of file folders or binders at home so you can keep track of papers you don’t need immediately (or until midterms or finals) and keep the daily binder(s) clean and organized. The other necessity is a planner. Most schools now provide specific planners, but – if yours doesn’t – get one. Do not underestimate the power of organizing with a schedule. Commit to creating a good habit with your planner and it will serve you way past school. I promise.

I want to be more organized with my backpack. How can I be more organized with my backpack? – Raquel, 5th Grade

Gosh, it seems like an easy task, doesn’t it? You head back to school with all your new binders and paper and pencils and new, yummy smelling erasers (Go ahead and take a minute right now to sniff those new erasers. So good.). Everything’s in its place in your new backpack. But within a week: chaos. And, guess what? It has a real effect on performance, that messy backpack. So let’s strategize.

Have a schedule for cleaning. Whether everyday or every Friday, choose a day to pull everything out and reorganize. Toss gum wrappers, those yucky paper remnants from spiral notebooks, pens that are out of ink. Take graded papers and notes and put them – by subject – into your at-home filing system. This not only keeps your backpack and binders organized, but it also keeps you from having to replace a dozen giant binders every school year because of overstuffing.

Have containers or “markers” for essential items. I was notorious for leaving my TI-82 in my locker, so I decorated it with purple painter’s tape. At the end of every day, I could make a quick visual confirmation of the calculator…if I didn’t see purple, I needed to hit my locker before heading home. Refill your supplies when you see you’re low. If you know you like 2 mechanical pencils, 4 ballpoint pens and 1 highlighter in your pencil pouch, check the supply regularly and replace when you can.

Have a checklist. You know that feeling when you get home and you pull out all your books to study for tomorrow’s history test and you’ve forgotten your book? Have a mental or literal checklist for the supplies you need each afternoon to make sure all those items go into your backpack at the end of school and they all go back the next morning. I work with a student who reads through his planner at the end of every school day and he literally touches the corresponding books/notebooks/supplies before he zips up his bag and heads home. It may feel like an annoying waste of time, but you know it doesn’t hurt like not having what you need for that big test the next day.

I’m going to a private school and my core group of friends is going to [the local public school]. I have a neighbor going to my school. I like him a lot so that will be nice. But, you hear all these horror stories about seniors pulling pranks on freshman and apparently that happens at my school so it’s a little scary. How do I make first impressions (like, first day of school clothes, first classes, high school – in general) less nerve-wracking? – Ela, 9th Grade

Ooh, Miss Ela. That’s a lot of pressure for a first day, huh? Firstly, most always the rumors about the seniors v. freshmen are spread by the upperclassmen themselves and they’re likely to make themselves out to be scarier than they are because once they fell for the same hype too. Also – if you’re hearing tell of pranks, so are teachers and administrators at the school, so I’m hoping you – at least – feel like there are adults who will be looking out for your general safety. (If you don’t…or if you are physically endangered or bullied, I would tell a school counselor immediately. You can do so confidentially so you don’t have to worry about THIS being your first impression to your fellow schoolmates.)

As for other first impressions: BE YOU. And try to avoid being “she who you think everyone else will like best”. You can certainly make friends with the band kids by acting or dressing the stereotype, but eventually you gotta face the awkward admission that you can’t whistle or march in-time, much less play any instrument…and definitely not in formation. So, better to lead with Ela so you know you’re accepted as Ela from day one. And first day outfit is a great opportunity to put in the effort to appear as and celebrate your best self (which doesn’t have to be dressy…my best self almost never involves a hair dryer). Then grab your neighbor-friend and get to meeting new folks.

Also! First Impression Disclaimer! You may very well find a good gaggle of girlfriends the very first day or week, but first impressions aren’t everything. Don’t be alarmed if/when your initial group bends and stretches and changes. Once you get past first impressions, you have to build friendships on much deeper criteria. Not everyone with a good initial impression makes the cut for lifelong friend…and someone whom you overlooked at first glance may be a bridesmaid at your wedding. The only guarantee is that the more open and honest you are about you, the more you’ll attract the lifelong friends you want.

My eldest is entering his freshman year of high school and I want to give him some (useful) advice. What are three things he should know before embarking on these next years? – Kendra, mother of a high school freshman

  1. The SATs do not decide your ENTIRE life. Oh, lord the SATs (and ACTs). Look, I’ve taught test prep for 10 years. The current reality is that our American education system has one singular method of testing academic ability for college admissions. Take a minute to close your eyes and think of all the people you know. Now think of all the types of minds and personalities and talents of those people. Even people you might not consider “brilliant” may have a wildly impressive talent or job, right? Now picture all those little bubbles you fill in on a standardized test and try reducing all the cool, successful, talented people you know to a scantron sheet. It seems silly, yes? K. Now don’t take the SAT personally. Study for it (some of those sections are just as much strategy as knowledge), take it and let it go. Those final numbers are a benchmark so colleges have a basic idea of your general ability (ie – you won’t fail out…colleges don’t like if you fail out so they just want to know you can do their work). You get admitted to college for who you are in addition to that number. Your time is better spent worrying about more awesome parts of yourself.
  2.  What you’re doing today is just as important as what you’re doing today for tomorrow. You know how you start freshman year today and everyone just starts repeating over and over what you do today will go on your transcript and you have to get into a good college tomorrow? Well, today is important too. And high school is tough. Not just because school is tough. Life is tough during high school. You have a lot to figure out about who you are and what you like and whom you like and you have parents and teachers and friends and girlfriends and boyfriends and every single one of them has his or her own journey and they conflict sometimes and it’s drama. And there are expectations from your folks and your school and you’re expected to master physics and adolescence concurrently. And at the end of all of it, instead of getting a medal for surviving, you get the S.A.T.s. So be kind to yourself. Try. Fail. Get up. Smile. Cry. Challenge yourself to say yes. Learn how to say no. Do your best. Try not to compare yourself to others. Be true to you. Enjoy you. It’s really the best way to ensure that tomorrow is everything you dream it will be.
  3. There is no “right way”. There is no universal map for the perfect high school experience or the path to the perfect college or job. There just isn’t. So make one that’s perfect for you.

What do high school frosh find to be the most challenging thing about high school these days? – Kendra

What do freshman find the most challenging? The pressure. So, Mom, try to keep your expectations in check. You can support without suffocating. You can challenge without chiding. Today’s reality is that college admissions are more competitive than we can really comprehend. Our children’s life paths are not going to look like ours. Not only because they are different people than we are, but because the academic world and the workforce are changing rapidly. Nontraditional education is more available and accredited than ever. Be adaptive. Champion your child as an individual and keep an open mind. Let him find himself. You can still be there to give him a hand when he needs you. And teach him to ask for your help. Show him you are accountable to him and you trust him. Be an example for good decision-making rather than telling him what is expected of him. Teach him. Help to form his values. And love him unconditionally and relentlessly.

I hope it was helpful to see other people’s questions and the responses. Please feel free to comment below and be sure to check in to let us know how your new school year is going!

All my love,

Miss Matters

*“Did you know that for pretty much the entire history of the human species, the average life span was less than thirty years? You could count on ten years or so of real adulthood, right? There was no planning for retirement, There was no planning for a career. There was no planning. No time for plannning. No time for a future. But then the life spans started getting longer, and people started having more and more future. And now life has become the future. Every moment of your life is lived for the future–you go to high school so you can go to college so you can get a good job so you can get a nice house so you can afford to send your kids to college so they can get a good job so they can get a nice house so they can afford to send their kids to college.”
John Green, Paper Towns

Your Year Rising: Intentions for a Better Life

I’m committing to trying a number of new disciplines and improvements in my life and I thought I would share some of the inspiration I’ve received from Claire Diaz-Ortiz, specifically. I appreciate her simple and personal approach which feels entirely empowering and never self-help-y.

Author, speaker and Silicon Valley innovator Claire’s book The Better Life is both a lovely personal manifesto on living well and an insightful offering of practical suggestions for small things we can all do, right now, right where we are to improve upon and add meaning to our lives.

Claire has graciously allowed us to excerpt content from The Better Life and I am including a call-to-arms she issues early in the book to get us all on our feet and ready to take our lives by storm.

“Set Your Intentions”

Like most of us, I want to be happier. Whether it’s waking up with more spark or going to bed more satisfied with my day, I want to open my life to the opportunity for greater joy. Continue reading

“It’s a love story, baby, just say, ‘Yes.'”

Dear Miss Matters,

I’ve only had one real significant relationship in my life. While I’d been in love before this particular man came along, he is the first person who has reciprocated my feelings and started a formal relationship with me. The experience, while not without its problems, has been amazing. No trust issues, no coercion, but magical romance and dogged support at times of my life when the closest of friends and even family turned tail. After several years dating him, I think he is the man of my life. Things on his end are the same. I mean that he feels like I’m the person he’d like to spend his life with. I’m his first real relationship too, though he did date a little in his teens whereas I didn’t at all. We discuss and plan ahead, both dreamily when it comes to future dreams and hopes and with our heads on tight when we talk finances and stability.  Continue reading

How to Live the Life You Imagine

By Julie Lythcott-Haims

One summer evening when I was twenty-seven years old, I sat on the concrete slab porch of my house and bawled like a baby. I was living in Silicon Valley with my wonderful husband, and worked as a first year associate at a prestigious Bay Area law firm where I earned plenty of money and praise for my hard work. Yet, somehow, inexplicably, when it came to my work life (which felt like my whole life), I was miserable and had a knot in my stomach every Sunday night at the thought of going back to work the next day. To make matters worse, everyone seemed to think I had a great job, because of the money, prestige and other trappings of success that came with it. Moreover, I knew I had no right to be miserable—my parents were loving and supportive and they’d given me a great education. And with that strong foundation, I thought I’d done everything right—the right schools, activities, achievements, and now, job choice. As I sat on the cold concrete behind my house that night I tried to imagine my life as a map and then took an aerial view of it, and understood that somehow I’d ended up on the extraneous periphery of my own life. Continue reading

“Oh, Rosalind! Rosalind! [I]t’s a poor substitute at best.”

Dear Miss Matters, 

It’s been four months since my boyfriend of a year gave me a sorry excuse for not being interested in the work required of a healthy, mature relationship. He broke my heart and I’ve been trying my best to mend and stop missing him. So I was pretty wrecked all over again when I found out from mutual friends that “Mister I-have-to-be-alone-so-I-can-figure-out-who-I-am-outside-of-a-relationship” has quickly found a friend-with-benefits (who also apparently looks a lot like I do. Eek.). Continue reading

Welcome to Miss Matters

First thing’s first: a formal introduction:

My name is Alexis. I have spent the last 10 years working in a professional capacity as a tutor/mentor/informal educational therapist/academic consultant.

I’ve always been curious about blogging. I like writing. But I didn’t want to sit at my computer and spout poorly-quoted philosophy.

When I asked myself what I – as a reader – would look for in a blog, I wanted interactivity. I always find that when I have one question answered, another 45 questions follow. And I find that the best part of being a mentor, or one who professionally dishes out advice, is the opportunity both the advice-giver and the advice-seeker have to learn from their shared experiences. I have no interest in pretending that I have all the answers. So this blog will be a collaboration.

With your help, lovelies, and with the inclusion of guest editors’ columns, I invite you to help create a community within which we can all learn and share and challenge and inspire…and matter. This community is a place for questions and concerns and answers and support. This is a space where women of all generations can meet and mingle and share their personal experiences so they may help another woman on her own journey.

Welcome to the 21st century version of the age-old advice column.

Welcome to Miss Matters.

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